What is it, how is it, where is it, when is it
All these questions running through my mind
But I’m not dead so how can it be defined
Have you ever had that moment
The one where you wanted to give up your life
Or maybe you didn’t but you were so close you finally believed death could no longer be denied
The point where everything is worthless
You don’t get it at all
You wonder how you could be so strong
But the the next day you fall
Or maybe its been a slow fall
You’ve been gliding down the lanes slow motion like a bowling ball
Heading towards destruction
There’s no doubt it will come to an end
A fall so big it could make you no longer want to function
So again, what is death
How does it feel
Where are all those people that left
Is it even real
You consider what its like to never think or feel or have any kind of worth
Does my life have meaning
Is there something more than earth
How is it possible
You really think this is it
We’re only a small blade of grass
Born to grow, mature and thrive
Then be over with
But what happens in the end
You’re not going to live forever
In death you will have no friends
No one else on which you can depend
You will only have yourslef
No longer can your safety net be wealth
In any aspect
Money, drugs and happiness
These wealths won’t get you anywhere
Once you’re sitting on the judgement chair
You’re stuck
Out of luck
What meaning did your life have
Good, terrible, happy, generous, bad
These are all choices
All of which you had
And so is the choice of life after death
If you overlook the things that made you mad
What are these things if not only temporary
Just as life is
You’re born, you grow, you die
This isn’t a lie
No matter how much you want to deny
One day you will no longer be a part of this world
What then can you do but wish for it back
Wish you would’ve been different and tried to counteract
Stand up for what’s right because wrong is usually the trend
Trends are so easily follwed but lead to an imminent

Just some thoughts. All I hope is for everyone to think long term and more than just today , tomorrow or this weekend. Don’t bet on it.

Need I say more..

Yeah I guess I can

I wasn’t about write

But I got something in store

To all the ladies out there

I promise there’s no need to look galore

Spend time on yourself

But even more than that

Respect your emotions before you let someone else take over

Do you care about yourself

Of are you fearing the high of love being sober

Well real love is never sober

I have the proof now to prove it

Every time before I swore I was through with it

So why now

Why not then

Its because my love was self-seeking

I now have realized the truth will reveal itself when it’s even

When you can respect each other and not have to worry

Stress or regret or wonder because real love will never be blurry

I cant say right now that Im right

But the battle I was once fighting no longer has a reason to fight

It’s met in the middle

Now everything is so much more clear

Love was once a riddle

Something I thought never should draw a tear

I can’t say now that things are the same

I have back my emotions

I’m giving up the game

It’s not even worth playing

You disrespect yourself in the end

Without even noticing

You aren’t even your own friend

You need someone else to rely on

And even when they’re there

You still don’t feel complete

Yet you stick around like you breathe air

So where do I go from now

Do I turn away

That’s the only way I knew how

Well that was the past and I’m willing to risk

I feel so vulnerable but I have no doubt in what’s next

I don’t have to fix

I don’t wish to change

Anything about you

I only wish for you to stay the same

My feelings for you are something I can’t even express

I could cry or write but who is it I should confess

To

Yes to you

I understand exactly what you’re saying

Because all of the things you say I do to you

Are exactly what YOU are putting me through.

foolishdreamers asked: your shuffling video is amazing! whats the song you shufffle to?x

Thanks! I appreciate it. which one? the first one?

Stuff is goin on

Im searchin for a friend

They all seem long gone

There when they need you

And gone when your in need

I thought we would grow

But I guess it wasn’t a nurtured seed

Taken care of

But only half-way

Maybe if you would’ve played your part

It would have stayed

But you know what

I am totally okay

Because I know there is a reason

God will show me the right way

You never did fit that great

It felt like a struggle

A struggle I was willing to go through

One I was willing to work towards

But it will only work when the other person is also taking steps forward

Do they not realize the love I poured

The sacrifices I made to make sure they were in a healthy state

I guess they do not realize the effort and time I put forth

I kept on giving and they were willing to take

It is sad and disappointing

But it was destined to be fate

Time to move on and find someone with a giving heart

Maybe then it won’t hurt

And it’ll be worth my time to take part

Instead of falling apart

I’ll have someone who helps me get put back together

Someone who’s there for me whenever wherever and in whatever weather

That would be awesome

It would make life so much better

Til then I will be fine

Spending time on my own

I will use what is not only mine

But something everyone should  find

He is there for you always and forever

He is there to fill you gaps and voids

With Him there will be no use of steroids

Any substance meant to make life better

Will be taken care of with His love letters

I don’t need a person or substance or passion

I am with God and he will never be out of fashion

Sagittarius women are attractive for their natural friendliness. Because of their energetic and positive force, they prefer the company of men to women. She makes perfect partner for an ambitious and successful man.

Female Sagittarius is honest and kind, although most of them are too impulsive. What make them so likeable are their inborn intuition and the ability not to take life too seriously. It takes time for her to settle down with one partner because she is likely to be surrounded by many admirers.

Men can try for years to steal her heart but she is impossible to win over; it happens only when she lets herself to fall in love. It might even seem that she can never be tamed. Sagittarius women rarely ever get married with an intention to have children and have calm life.

It is quite difficult for them to concentrate on creating a warm family environment because they are always searching for ways to experience something new. Nevertheless, she can be a perfect wife if the partner is equally perfect.

Sagittarius woman likes to take charge in financial matters, and she wants to know all the details. As a mother, she is energetic, kind and fun to be with but she usually has no patience with children. For her to enjoy serious relationships, she must feel like experiencing one big adventure.